When I was 15, I dreamed of the woman I would be in ten years. I mean everything — from how I would dress, wear my hair, type of job — I couldn’t wait to grow up. Maybe it was because I had a little too much responsibility in my younger years (more on that later) but I always connected being an adult with being confident, in control and “put together”. I knew I wouldn’t be married or have kiddos, but I knew I would live a comfortable life.
Yeah, 15-year-old Princess-Yiema had high hopes. But thank you Lord for unanswered prayers.
At 27, I can safely say that I do NOT live a comfortable life. At all. And it’s a good thing. In fact, I hope NONE of you live comfortable lives.
I have learned and grown so much in these 12 years that I can’t imagine being “done”.
From life’s celebrations to the drama, I’ve realized that adulthood doesn’t have a minimum age requirement. It doesn’t begin with graduation, your first job out of grad school, meeting the your soulmate or having babies. Adulthood begins as soon as you realize: 1. YOU AREN’T OWED A DAMN THING. NOT ONE, 2. YOU are accountable for your actions; and 3. No one truly knows exactly what they are doing.
I used to dream of being comfortable. Comfortable meant safe to me. But, in these 12 years, I’ve been any and everything but comfortable. I’ve let go of people I never thought I could let go of, did things I’ve never done before and, essentially, I’ve been a wild woman.
I’ve had an uncomfortable 12 years, however no matter how exposed and vulnerable I felt in the moment, it was so worth it in the end. Each trial, each tribulation may have cause their fair share of heart palpitations and deepened the lines on my brow, but it was a fair exchange for the woman I am currently becoming. Today, I look back on those uncomfortable moments, remember how it felt, and press forward. Aside from accrued interest, there’s nothing for me in ‘how it used to be’ or, more importantly who I used to be. There’s only hope in what’s to come.
I’ve become unstoppable because I’ve been uncomfortable.
My friends, I truly hope you’re never comfortable. Comfortable is safe, but you don’t grow when you’re comfortable.
Seek the uncomfortable. Invest in it. Dwell in it. Embrace it.
In return, it will make you unstoppable.